alright peeps.

im back to blogging.

must still have to depend on mood. lol.

recently been kind of busy.

first, my grandpa.

then, Ivan.

also all the people around me,

everyone seems to be having troubles in relationship and etc.

grandpa

he had been in the hospital for one week plus.

starting, he seem to be fine.

then his hands and legs start to swell with bruises.

he slim down,

cant eat anything.

whenever he eat,

he will feel very terrible in his throat.

cough like nobody's business.

breathless always.

he is my one and only grandpa,

i cant bear to see him like this.

doctor say his organ infected.

bro say his chance of recovering is very low.

to be exact,

he is just waiting for time to pass.

the first time when i visited him,

i nearly broke down but i control.

i dont want to let him see the weak side of me.

yesterday i went alone,

the fear was holding me back but i went ahead.

he started to forget about me.

accompany him for 2hours plus till he fall asleep then i went off.

the moment i leave the ward,

i starting tearing.

i cant control cos i control too long.

i really hope nothing will happen to him.

Ivan

he is one of my friend.

he is also Precious's best bro.

Precious is not around,

so i stand in for him.

he is having operation today,

but i cant be there though im on leave.

its because he didnt wanted me to be there.

i never had a friend who need to go for operation,

therefore im very worried.

pray thats nothing serious happen to him.

Friends

breaking up seems to be a trend nowadays.

almost everyone around me is having this trouble.

nobody to accompany them,

so i have to do it.

it just cant be help.

sometimes all they need to do is to forget and try not to think of it,

but they cant do it.

at times,

im loss at words to console them as well.

hope that they will get well soon!

sometimes,

it doesnt pay to be good.

i help people,

then who help me?

im there for them when they needed a listening ear,

but when i needed someone?

Precious is my only emotionally and mentally support now.

i want to have a good cry,

but tears are holding back.

when i talk to my mum about my grandpa,

i nearly broke down.

but i cant do it.

there's so many things to say,

i dont know where to start from.

i dont know how to put into words.

i just dont wish to have anything happen to any of my friends or even people around me.

anyway,

christmas is coming soon.

planning plan for christmas!

so far,

wednesday clubbing while working halfday on thursday?

thursday office christmas party then home sweet home?

friday meeting cliques for gathering plus gift exchange?

everything is not confirm yet.

A picture before Precious depart from me. 21st Oct.

I know that i had been isolating my blog. lol.

pardon me for that.

after F1,

attachments started.

everyone went to the banking teams while im the only one to non banking team.

though its not something bad,

but its separated from everyone.

was on leave on monday 19oct,

supposedly Precious's flight is on monday night,

that is why i took leave,

and its was delayed and changed to wednesday.

tuesday night,

i was thinking of faking a mc.

and who knows,

when i woke up,

i was down with headache and etc.

went polyclinic with Precious's mum and sister,

got medicine and etc.

then cab to his house.

spent our last few hours before he fly off.

and to think that he is actually flying off on his birthday. haiz.

then cab to changi airport together with Precious.

when we arrived at the departure hall,

i broke into tears.

i tried my best to hold back,

but i just cant do it.

all i can do is just looking at Precious's back and cry in my heart.

walking alone away from departure hall is something that i had never done.

when i finally wake up from my senses,

Precious called me,crying on the phone,

i started crying again.

after i leave the airport,

i try not to think of the departure hall and look forward to arrival hall.

went to meet up with sk and p.

had a filling dinner which makes me feel better.

had good chatiing session as well.

blah blah blah,

went back home and knock out.

just minute before i knock out,

Precious's mum called me and started crying.

she said that Precious did not call her and she misses him.

and the touching part is the next morning,

early in the morning at 7am,

Precious's father called me and cry,

he told me he miss Precious,

he want Precious to be safe and sound. LOL.

whenever im alone,

i would think of Precious.

days without him seem to pass so slow.

weekends without him seem like hell.

but when my iap ends,

Precious will be coming back!

yesterday,

someone ask me.

"do you miss your Precious alot?"

i said "yes."

"then do you cry every night?"

i said "no."

"why"

i said " cos crying cant bring Precious back."

at the point of time,

i realised im stronger and more mature.

i would stay strong and wait for Precious's return!

sorry guys.

have not been updating for more than a month.

been busy with F1.

finally F1 is over! lol.

i had fun with my partner, Wainee and also those crews under us.

of course had afew conflicts as well.

Wainee is always there to listen to my complaints. lol.

but also thanks to Jeffery,

he is always there when something crop up.

he would cool me down or bring me aside. thanks!

i had a wonderful in-charge who treat us pizza and sushi! haha.

that 3 race days were hell man.

busy at all times but the sense of achievement is there,

whenever you see your stocks running out,

you would know that your sales are well.

we beat marina outlet for all 3days. lol.

Juliana just told us that there will be warehouse sales for staffs in november,

and she will be getting all of us to help out. lol.

alright,

enough of F1.

Precious will be leaving soon. in 1week time.

i hope time would allow me to spend all these time left with him.

and also,

attachment starting in 2weeks time.

how much time am i left with to enjoy?